Help me find a way, to bring me back to You

Begging for a broken heart

Begging and pleading actually... I'm at one of those times in my life where I feel so distant from God, and I gotta say not the biggest fan. I am uncapable of being satisfied without the presence of God in my life, I'm along the lines of miserable without Him... and I'm pretty sure it shows to everyone around me.. It's my fault I know, I've been neglecting the relationship for the last couple weeks, life has gotten in the way...not a good excuse at all..

So now I'm on my knees begging for a broken heart, to bring on the rain, because I need to feel Your presence God, and while storms aren't very fun, I need You to come and invade my life, if it takes something hard to do it then I'm willing to go through it, should You choose to do the opposite and just bless me I will be more then grateful, but I need to feel your presence God, I need to see Your glory....

I've made the last couple weeks about me..was so selfish in everything I did... Right now I'm willing to do anything to hear you say my name God, to hear you say that who I am is quite enough...

"A broken heart and a contrite spirit, you have yet to deny, your heart of mercy beats with love's strong current"

Time to get back to my part of the relationship..I'm not very good at this relationship thing (clearly we've all seen that in my life) It's a lot of work. amazing how easy it is for God to want to spend so much time with me and love me and it's the biggest struggle for me...it's a part of being human I guess..

I'm really sorry about that God, you know my heart desires you but my actions don't always show it, help me work on that, and be the child you long for me to be...

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going

But faith is moving without knowing

Can I trust what I can't see to reach my destiny?

I want to take control but I know better

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been

I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared

Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable

No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Dear 22, lets make this a good one. k?

So , what a fun and eventful birthday weekend I have had, it started off very lovely celebrating Scotty and Meagan's wedding and dancing the night away on friday night! She was radiant and it was by far one of the best and most fun weddings I've ever been to, and I'm pretty sure I had baby got back dedicated to me which made the night just that much better.

I am so blessed to have them as friends and I love them so much! Congrats guys! :)

And as we all know Saturday was my 22nd birthday..whoohoo! It was suppose to be a very uneventful birthday seeing as how I had a wedding to shoot, but by the time I got to my photo assistant's house to get ready to head to Franklin to photograph the bride before heading to the church everything was flooded so we decided to just to head to Murfreesboro to the venue, but 2 hours later and 30 minutes after the wedding had started we were still sitting in traffic and not moving.( They got married without their photographers and now I don't have that few hundred dollars I was depending on :( ) We finally were able to get off the interstate and get something to eat, which my wonderful assistant paid for at Red Robin then had them sing Happy Birthday to me ( i've avoided that happening my whole life) Then we spent the night watching Batman Begins and The Dark Knight since I'm lame and had never seen them before (I'm a huge fan now)

So since there is no way out I had to sleep at his house, which he kindly gave up his bed for me and had cinnamon rolls ready for when I woke up (what a good friend he is) So we've sat around all day watching Avatar and doing a whole bunch of nothing, and now it's Papa Murphy's time and Transformers 2 time since it looks like I'm stuck here tonight too, I really would like to be back in Clarksville so I could at least change clothes but whatever, it's not the worst birthday weekend of my life.. However I am sad that we had to cancel my big bday dinner at PF Changs tonight, but we'll make it happen soon (stupid floods)

What crap weather for a birthday lol but it's ok hopefully this will be a completely amazing year and make up for this weekend....

Dear 22, lets make this a phenomenal year...sound good ??