Dear Society

you can read this post on my tumblr site.. it's my letter to a society that thinks that at 22 i should be in a serious relationship.. it's ok if i'm not.. so deal with it society

http://heatherkennedy.tumblr.com/post/1247006912/dear-society

To my brothers in Christ, this is for you.

I am honored to be surrounded by so many AMAZING Godly men. I can't even begin to express how much of a blessing you guys are in my life. In a world where men constantly look at women as if we're just something they can snatch up, use, and toss aside, it's very refreshing to be around guys that are opposite of that and who show respect.

It's good to know that there are awesome guys out there that have a heart chasing after Christ and that live that out in their daily life... It's even better to know that these same guys are our friends. As girls pursuing the heart of God, I believe it's important that we have these guys in our lives to lead by example and show us how a true Godly man should act.

So guys, thank you for not being ashamed to run after God, the most attractive thing a man could ever do is love Jesus with all his heart. Thank you for showing respect, thank you for giving your all into whatever needs to be done whenever, for listening when someone needs a willing ear, for watching over and helping to guard your sisters in Christ hearts even when you don't realize you're even doing it.. We're watching you, and we want to be worthy of men like you one day. Thank you for leading and showing us that even though we all fall short, a true man can humble himself and let God take over and guide the path, that's one of the greatest strengths a person can possess. You have all of my respect, thanks for not being afraid to lay down your life and run as fast to the cross as you can...

Most of all, thanks for just loving Jesus, and for just being around.. you guys are all incredibly awesome... I'm honored to know you and call you friend

time for a change?? I think so.. tomorrow? nah i'll start today

It's time for a change again... I think change is the one thing I love most about my life, it never allows me to get too comfortable where I'm at.. which is a good thing for me... This summer has been pretty crazy for me.. moving 8 times..being homeless..couch crashing..eating pb&j and drinking water everyday because it was all i could afford.. doing my best to trust God with everyday... but somewhere along there I slipped back and wasn't giving God my all..it's well noticed as my mom has been pointing out my attitude all week, it's been horrible and I know that when my mood changes like this that something in my life is wrong and it usually leads back to my relationship with Christ... which I'm wondering what I did with that for most of the summer, it was still there, just not an everyday thing, and that's not how the relationship works, and I've been frustrated with myself most days for not giving God more... for compromising... for not standing up for what I truly believe in....

Tomorrow is another new beginning for me.. I finally move into my own apartment, lots of new beginnings tomorrow, I thought about starting a fresh renewal with God tomorrow..then I decided nah... I'm starting now..I'm not promised tomorrow.. "This is the day the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it"- Psalm 118:24... it's today..not tomorrow.. it's now

I haven't been sharing Jesus the way I should, sometimes I wonder if people who barely know me know that I'm a Christian... Can you see it in me??? I feel super lame right now.. I was thinking about how selfish I am today, and realized how small I am compared to the things God holds in his hands..yet I am a big deal to him. Something I heard at church this past sunday at Fellowship was Rick telling a story about a little boy who was excited about his part in a play and he said I'm one of the main characters.. and Rick said isn't that what we want to be? To be able to say I'm one of the main characters in God's plan.... I am a main Character in Christ's plan... just let that resonate for awhile... I'm such a big deal to the maker of the universe...no matter how crappy I feel that brings a smile so ridiculously big to my face.. I am so ridiculously in love with Jesus and I tear up just trying to fathom a love so deep that he contains for me..

I struggle with certain things, but I feel like God is holding some things back in my life because He has something sooo much greater then I can even imagine for me... at a time when literally almost EVERYONE I know is either talking about getting engaged, engaged, getting married, honeymooning, or having kids.. I struggle sometimes with being alone, and then God is like, Heather you have no earthly idea what is in store for you... and I'm only imagining it has to be more awesome than what he has for everyone else because he's making me wait longer.. I've been pretty content lately... I'm praying that contentedness continues, bc when the struggle comes it really comes hard.. I'm extremely thankful for Christian guys in my life though that hold a standard of what a good man is like, I'm honored by my brothers in Christ to want to be a better daughter of the King...

So life is hard. I'm a Christian. I'm not half-way in and half-way out... I'm all the way in.. I'm sold.. Here I go....abandoning myself for the cross, because it holds every key i'll ever need.. I'm pressing on

Thank you Paul McCartney for still rockin' at 68

So this week I finally got to fulfill my biggest life long dream, which was to see a Beatle live in concert....so let me begin with EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I SAW PAUL FREAKING MCCARTNEY IN CONCERT IN PERSON IN THE SAME ROOM WE WERE BREATHING THE SAME AIR!!!!

Sooooooo yeah, kind of a big deal to me ;) I would of been one of those girls in the 60's at a Beatles concert, crying, screaming, fainting, pulling her hair out, ripping off her clothes... I've pretty much been a fan since I've been out of the womb. When Paul walked out for the first time and it hit me I was really looking at a Beatle in person I pretty much flipped...ok I did flip...

He told stories, and gave tributes to Jimi, John, George, and Linda..and I cried on all of them..and the 2 encores he gave rocked my world... I don't really have words to put the whole experience into except I got live out something I've dreamed about my entire life..I'm still kinda speechless about the whole thing besides saying, EEEEEEEEEEE!!! and it was AMAZING!!! and more EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!'s ::said in extremely high pitched scream::

one of the most satisfying experiences of my life... my world has been rocked...

Wednesday 28th July, Time Warner Cable Arena, Charlotte

1. Venus and Mars / Rockshow
2. Jet
3. All My Loving
4. Letting Go
5. Drive My Car
6. Highway
7. Let Me Roll It
8. The Long And Winding Road
9. Nineteen Hundred and Eighty Five
10. Let ‘Em In
11. My Love
12. I’ve Just Seen A Face
13. And I Love Her
14. Blackbird
15. Here Today
16. Dance Tonight
17. Mrs Vandebilt
18. Eleanor Rigby
19. Something
20. Sing The Changes
21. Band On The Run
22. Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da
23. Back In The USSR
24. I’ve Got A Feeling
25. Paperback Writer
26. A Day In The Life / Give Peace A Chance
27. Let It Be
28. Live And Let Die
29. Hey Jude

Encore
30. Day Tripper
31. Lady Madonna
32. Get Back

Second Encore
33. Yesterday
34. Helter Skelter
35. Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band / The End

Help me find a way, to bring me back to You

Begging for a broken heart

Begging and pleading actually... I'm at one of those times in my life where I feel so distant from God, and I gotta say not the biggest fan. I am uncapable of being satisfied without the presence of God in my life, I'm along the lines of miserable without Him... and I'm pretty sure it shows to everyone around me.. It's my fault I know, I've been neglecting the relationship for the last couple weeks, life has gotten in the way...not a good excuse at all..

So now I'm on my knees begging for a broken heart, to bring on the rain, because I need to feel Your presence God, and while storms aren't very fun, I need You to come and invade my life, if it takes something hard to do it then I'm willing to go through it, should You choose to do the opposite and just bless me I will be more then grateful, but I need to feel your presence God, I need to see Your glory....

I've made the last couple weeks about me..was so selfish in everything I did... Right now I'm willing to do anything to hear you say my name God, to hear you say that who I am is quite enough...

"A broken heart and a contrite spirit, you have yet to deny, your heart of mercy beats with love's strong current"

Time to get back to my part of the relationship..I'm not very good at this relationship thing (clearly we've all seen that in my life) It's a lot of work. amazing how easy it is for God to want to spend so much time with me and love me and it's the biggest struggle for me...it's a part of being human I guess..

I'm really sorry about that God, you know my heart desires you but my actions don't always show it, help me work on that, and be the child you long for me to be...

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going

But faith is moving without knowing

Can I trust what I can't see to reach my destiny?

I want to take control but I know better

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been

I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared

Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable

No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Dear 22, lets make this a good one. k?

So , what a fun and eventful birthday weekend I have had, it started off very lovely celebrating Scotty and Meagan's wedding and dancing the night away on friday night! She was radiant and it was by far one of the best and most fun weddings I've ever been to, and I'm pretty sure I had baby got back dedicated to me which made the night just that much better.

I am so blessed to have them as friends and I love them so much! Congrats guys! :)

And as we all know Saturday was my 22nd birthday..whoohoo! It was suppose to be a very uneventful birthday seeing as how I had a wedding to shoot, but by the time I got to my photo assistant's house to get ready to head to Franklin to photograph the bride before heading to the church everything was flooded so we decided to just to head to Murfreesboro to the venue, but 2 hours later and 30 minutes after the wedding had started we were still sitting in traffic and not moving.( They got married without their photographers and now I don't have that few hundred dollars I was depending on :( ) We finally were able to get off the interstate and get something to eat, which my wonderful assistant paid for at Red Robin then had them sing Happy Birthday to me ( i've avoided that happening my whole life) Then we spent the night watching Batman Begins and The Dark Knight since I'm lame and had never seen them before (I'm a huge fan now)

So since there is no way out I had to sleep at his house, which he kindly gave up his bed for me and had cinnamon rolls ready for when I woke up (what a good friend he is) So we've sat around all day watching Avatar and doing a whole bunch of nothing, and now it's Papa Murphy's time and Transformers 2 time since it looks like I'm stuck here tonight too, I really would like to be back in Clarksville so I could at least change clothes but whatever, it's not the worst birthday weekend of my life.. However I am sad that we had to cancel my big bday dinner at PF Changs tonight, but we'll make it happen soon (stupid floods)

What crap weather for a birthday lol but it's ok hopefully this will be a completely amazing year and make up for this weekend....

Dear 22, lets make this a phenomenal year...sound good ??

Grateful for a steadfast love from my Father

Just wanted to share a few verses that have put a smile on my face tonight :)

Psalm 31:7-8 "I will rejoice and be glad in your steadfast love, because you have seen my affliction; you have known the distress of my soul, and you have not delivered me into the hand of the enemy; you have set my feet in a broad place."

Psalm 31:19 "Oh, how abundant is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you..."

Psalm 31:23-24 "...The Lord preserves the faithful but abundantly repays the one who acts in pride. Be strong and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!"

Psalm 33:22 " Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us, even as we hope in you."

God's steadfast love is what carries me through the day... I am so thankful that He shows so much of it towards me and to all his children... His love for me is never changing... He is loyal in his love towards me, even when I struggle in my relationship with Him... He is more then good to me especially in my least times of deserving, He never changes..He never fails.. and He never will

I'm humbled. My hope is in you Daddy...